New choices.

I've developed a tolerance, it seems. I tried windowpaning LSD--that's worked for me and it seems so awfully poetic in nature--but it didn't work. I only got a mild effect; not even a Level 1 trip. I've heard about this. The mind adapts to the new input of information and accepts it as 'normal', the drug therefore becoming useless. The treatment is simple, thank god. All I have to do is not take acid for a week or so; when I restart my program the trips will be as intense as they were at first.
That's all well and good, but 7 days sober, locked in my limited point of view? Not going to happen. I feel this yawning need, not like a physical craving but a mental requirement...I must go back to that blissful state of environment. I've got to trip again, if not on LSD then on something else.
Ketamine. It's called "special K" and was synthesized for use as an anesthetic; that's most definitely not the case nowadays. Effects are said to include mental detatchment, relaxation, and above all hallucinations. That's what I'm looking for, and luckily I've actually got a supply--two doses thrust upon me one day by a raver who didn't know what to do with them. I'd never really thought about them until now. I'll try this--one dose will just about cover someone of my size and will do me good for a few more days. The learning sessions will continue at the school of the mind...I wonder if I'll wind up in a different place with a different drug. Good night. I'll write again when I come down.